22 Dec When Christmas Hurts.
Why, hello people I love.
Welp, it is officially Christmas. I’ve received 3 fruitcakes in the mail. Our janky Christmas lights are up. We cut down our tree and listened to Celine Dion slay O, Holy Night. No one sings it as good as her, and if you argue with me about that…then I guess we just can’t be friends. 😉 For real though.
Thing is, usually this time of year is my favorite thing ever. I love the traditions. I love the music. I love the occasion. But this year, I’m just not feeling Christmas. I am kinda ready for it to be over. Heck, I’m ready for this year to be over.
It was such a crazy year with a lot of really hard moments. I kinda feel like my family went through the ringer. It’s still a little weird, almost shocking how this year went down. And I’m sure some of you are right with me. As much as you love Jesus and your family, you kinda just wanna toss the good Lord a cupcake with a candle, sing Happy Birthday and move on. This time of year may be a painful reminder of what you’ve lost since last year. You’re exhausted. I. Get. It.
And I think Jesus gets it too. I don’t think He’s mad about it. Because if there’s anything I’ve learned in this year, it’s that Jesus never quits on you. I’ve always heard the term, “God won’t give you more than you can handle.” I believe that saying is really inaccurate and quite frankly, it’s kinda dangerous. I am hear to tell you, sometimes you will go through stuff you cannot handle. Sometimes people who are perfectly healthy get really sick. Sometimes precious children pass away. Sometimes spouses get sent off to different countries away from their families to fight wars with no promise of returning home. Sometimes jobs go away. Sometimes people who we love change. Sometimes families break. Sometimes things beyond our control happen that we simply can’t deal with.
But in all of that mess. In all of that sadness. Jesus never quits us. He never leaves. He never quits loving us. When we’re cussing mad, He doesn’t throw His hands up at us. When we respond emotionally and make stupid decisions based on our pain, He doesn’t walk away. He loves us, He holds us, He dusts us off, and He walks with us. I once heard a child say to his baby brother, as many times as you fall, I will pick you up. That’s Jesus.
So. I don’t know what you’re facing. You may be struggling hard this time of year. But that’s OK. It’s OK to not have your crap together. It’s OK that you’re hurting. It’s OK. God doesn’t expect you to have it together. He just wants you to come to Him, even if your face is covered with tears and snot. You know, that’s what Christmas is all about. God looked at the world and saw people who didn’t have it together. Broken people. Hurting people. So He sent a baby. Named Jesus. To save us. To take on what we could not take. To give us hope in good times and broken times.
Rest in that. Jesus was born so you could rest in that. Wow.
I’m praying for a different year for my family in 2016. But I’m grateful that Jesus walked with us this year. I’m grateful He used Collier’s life to change so many others for Him. I’m grateful for how much I learned about His grace and patience. It was a hard year. But God blessed us immeasurably. Thank you, Jesus. Happy Birthday.
P.S Congrats to Melanie! You won the Jesus Saves Bro shirt! Thanks for being a faithful reader!